Embedded in Fear

A deep numbness has completely overwhelmed this beaten carcass

Heaviness weighs down on fractured bones, fractured thoughts

Severe insomnia teasing at every negativity

Neglecting past trauma with a darkened reality

Masking sickness with unimaginable torture

The horrible thoughts that I perceive

Mutilate what's around me

I cleanse in the annihilation

I cleanse in the annihilation

Nervousness and uncertainty

Worriment and misery

Scrape at the inside of my head

And carve endless images of damnation

In my mind

Will I ever be at ease

All I want is a fucking mind at peace

The tremors keep me awake at night

I'm losing any sign of light

A feeling of surrender

My body goes numb and my vision expires

Slipping into oblivion in panic

Will forever be embedded in my haunted memory

Completely lost in the darkest state of hysteria and helplessness

The world vividly crumbles around me

The walls caving in make the hallucinations extremely violent

I am learning but not accepting that this is where cross over

Am I answered or just an empty shell of nothingness

Oh higher power, give this a purpose