Black Friday

Is this what I lived for?

To be choked in a toy store

While staring into hell

There's something that's beautiful

Being awake for my funeral

You can close the casket now

The plans for my father's hopeless seed

Born into moral poverty

Still, I wasn't an angel heaven sent

To break through my cliché boundaries

'Cause Friday is black for me

The dreamer has dreamed her dream

When Friday is black

There's no turning back

'Cause Friday is black for me

Is there some lesson to learn

Should I never have wanted?

I never even got started

Or were the decks always just this stacked

I mean, it's really a godsend

Clear my plans for the weekend

But there's nothing to subtract

I don't want your half-baked sympathy

When did it save those in need?

Still, I thought that angels did exist

But now I hope they plan to end it quick

'Cause Friday is black for me

Only my ashes will see the sea

When Friday is black

There's no turning back

'Cause Friday is black for me

At first I didn't know what she was to me

At first I didn't know why I cared

Or why I wanted

To hold her and rock her to sleep

Did I need her more than she needed me?

Maybe I'm wrong

She can go on her own

'Cause I'm leaving

'Cause Friday is black for me

Only my ashes will see the sea

When Friday is black

There's no turning back

'Cause Friday is black-

You're not dead yet